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Diary

Dealing with stress

It's that time again when I have to stay late at work and study for the exam. Although being the last one out of the building (but I'm sure there are other people that I just haven't seen... you overachievers) sometimes feels empowering and makes me feel that I'm trying, but more than anything, I just feel tired af. 

The slight and perhaps mis-guided sense of accomplishment also comes with a great amount of stress and anxiety - an ominous feeling that creeps all over me that I might have to do this over and over again. After all, I've taken this exam twice and if I can't do it this time, I'm just not sure if I'd have willpower and energy to repeat this arduous process.

This sense of uncertainty sometimes is slowly chocking me, but I really can't do anything about it at this point. There are only a few courses of actions I can take. One is to feel depressed and loathing myself, certainly not a great solution which I used to adpot. 

An alternative path is blasting EDM on the way back home and screaming out of my lung while cruising down route 66. Turn the volume almost all the way up, and it feels like a club. As I feel the bounce, I can slowly feel, at least during that moment, my stress going away. At that moment, I don't even worry about exams and my future. I just flow with the groove and it indeed feels great. 

When I get home, I'm already feeling energetic as if the fatigue that worn me out while I was studying has vanished.

I've got a few more days until the exam and I'm not gonna lie, I am scared. So I want to deal with this stress more wisely, and so far, it's been working out quite well.

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